The new life

Hello my loves,

I know my postings have been very spaced and I do apologize and Iwant to let you all know why and WHT I am hoping to do with this blog in the next few months.

The last three months of my life has been extremely hectic. If you follow my blog you will know a bit but if you don't here is a recap.

After a 7 year relationship with my now ex-fiancee I finally threw in the towel. We went through many ups and downs in our 7 years together including having two marvelous boys (now 2 and 4). Our relationship had fallen into shambles not by lack of trying (trust me we tried) but I had decided to make the decision that I couldn't live the way we were any more. I was becoming more and more angry at life and with the person I had become. I was no longer a good role model for my children and I didn't want my children to think a relationship is just made of fighting so I left.

I moved into my mother's basement for two months. I shared my room with my two boys which I have every second week ( luckily this was something me and my ex B were able agree on).  I met a new man about. week after I had left B, we we were just supposed to be friends. We had had a long conversation about how we both weren't looking for a relationship. He did get to meet the boys because we'll we were just supposed to be friends. K (I will call himK) left for several days to go see his children and it is in that absence that we made the decision that we would try our hand out at a relationship.

Now this wasn't an easy or typical relationship and finding time
 we could see each other or a place to spend together alone was hard. Him and his father share a bachelor's apartment. His dad only comes down for his one week work rotation and thenkewaves but with that said they work opposite schedules and when K works he is in bed by 9 o'clock the latest. My work schedule is also changing every week unlike jhis which made things a bit harder too.  Living with my mom and having my children with me every second week also made things hard but we made it work.

K knew that I was scared of starting a new relationship. I thought I had failed miserably at my first serious relationship we will call it and it wasn't just me that I was afraid to hurt. I not only had my heart to protect any more but also my boys. He reassured me not by telling me that everything would work out but by just listenning. He took the time to understand what was bothering but WHT was also important to me is that I knew he understood because he is a father himself. I know that a lot of people judged me and will continue too but that's OK because I have learned that I need to live my life despite what others think because what others think isn't l ways what is best for me.

Finally, June came around this was a huge step for me. I moved into a sort of town house that is geared to my  income my rent changes from month to month based on what I made that week. For the first time in my Imoved out on my own with no roo mate or boyfriend literally jut by myself an actual independent woman ( which is a scary thought considering I'm 26 and have two boys).  Here is where we are now.

I know that o wanted to do the 52 weeks money challenge hell I blogged about it and started but unfortunately I had to spend a lot of money when I moved. I bought a new fridge and stove, a washer a used dryer and I bought my  parents old bed. I was lucky enough to have single bed and my brother gave me his old one for ,y boys which meant that My littlest monster was being taken out of the crib and straight into a bed.

I won't lie this month came with a lot of freedom and well at the end of the month when the bills came out I was freaked out I don't think I have been ever so broke in my life and that is scary. That reminded me of why I started thiss blog and now with my life really in shambles and coming together all at once has giving me more motivation to keep up with this blog.

I have just started  new being healthy journey. I am not calling a weight loss journey because it's not what this is about. The journey that am on is for me to become a whole new better life. I want to become more financially independent, healthier for my children both physically and mentally. I want to become a better person especially since I know that I have been more then inconsiderate and mean and just down right not ok with others and I can totally own up to it because no I am not perfect.

I want this blog  to hopefully reach a few of you out there and make everyone realize that there is always room for improvements and that if you fall you just got to shake that dust off and get back on your feet.

July is approaching and for the month of July I will be keeping track of all expenses for the months to make a new budget since my old one is no longer applicable. I will also be keeping track of my health journey with you. I hope that you will follow along.

I have joined fitness blender and have taken a 4 week low impact workout program with them and I am getting back into yoga 2-4 times a week. I am also eating healthier since I am paying for a program that sends me enough non-GMO and pesticide free produce for 3-5 people and I'm eating it all with a bit of help of course but still.

That is the full update and I am hoping to get my new phone soon so I can take the  pictures I need to help you follow me on y
my journey.

love

P

Strawberry rhubarb tart

Strawberry Rhubarb Tart

hello everyone,

I'm writing this from a tablet so I do apologize if it's not the best format. My phone broke and I am currently waiting to get a new one. 

I have been really busy between moving, learning my new role as a single mom and starting a new relationship with new friends and old ones as well as a personal relationship with someone I have been finding it hard to make time for myself. Last week was one of those weeks where I was able to find time for just myself and no one else and in that time I was able to do some baking. 

This year I took part in a program that last 18 weeks and I get fresh non-GMO and free from pesticide straight from farms around this area. My first box came with rhubarb and other then cutting it up and freezing it I decided to try my hand at a king strawberry rhubarb tarts.

I remember my mom making these and oh how good they tasted so I gave it a shot. I made my pie smaller because I knew Iwould probably sit there ND et the whole pie to myself. Making them inot to tart sizes this allows me to share it with friendsand family and keep my portion in check now that Iam once again on the trying to be healthy train. 

Any ways enough babbling here is the recipe. I hope you enjoy it as much s I did.

The crust I used was on this site it is from Ricardo and it is eggless. I to this recipe because my oldest is allergic to eggs and it is so far the best pie crust I have found.  I double this recipe to make approximately 24 tarts. 

THE FILLING

4 cups rhubarb cut into pieces

4 cups of strawberries cut into pieces

1/2 cup of white sugar

2 tablespoons of corn starch

Throw all then ingredients in a pot. turn it on medium heat and let it simmer for about 10-15 minutes or until the rhubarb is tender. 

If your mix is too runny just add a bit more cornstarch until you've reached the consistency you want. 

Once your mix is ready put it in the raw tart crust and cook it in the oven at 425 for 20-25 minutes.

You can then sprinkle confectionery sugar on them or add any other type of topping you'd like.