Hello my loves,
I know my postings have been very spaced and I do apologize and Iwant to let you all know why and WHT I am hoping to do with this blog in the next few months.
The last three months of my life has been extremely hectic. If you follow my blog you will know a bit but if you don't here is a recap.
After a 7 year relationship with my now ex-fiancee I finally threw in the towel. We went through many ups and downs in our 7 years together including having two marvelous boys (now 2 and 4). Our relationship had fallen into shambles not by lack of trying (trust me we tried) but I had decided to make the decision that I couldn't live the way we were any more. I was becoming more and more angry at life and with the person I had become. I was no longer a good role model for my children and I didn't want my children to think a relationship is just made of fighting so I left.
I moved into my mother's basement for two months. I shared my room with my two boys which I have every second week ( luckily this was something me and my ex B were able agree on). I met a new man about. week after I had left B, we we were just supposed to be friends. We had had a long conversation about how we both weren't looking for a relationship. He did get to meet the boys because we'll we were just supposed to be friends. K (I will call himK) left for several days to go see his children and it is in that absence that we made the decision that we would try our hand out at a relationship.
Now this wasn't an easy or typical relationship and finding time
we could see each other or a place to spend together alone was hard. Him and his father share a bachelor's apartment. His dad only comes down for his one week work rotation and thenkewaves but with that said they work opposite schedules and when K works he is in bed by 9 o'clock the latest. My work schedule is also changing every week unlike jhis which made things a bit harder too. Living with my mom and having my children with me every second week also made things hard but we made it work.
K knew that I was scared of starting a new relationship. I thought I had failed miserably at my first serious relationship we will call it and it wasn't just me that I was afraid to hurt. I not only had my heart to protect any more but also my boys. He reassured me not by telling me that everything would work out but by just listenning. He took the time to understand what was bothering but WHT was also important to me is that I knew he understood because he is a father himself. I know that a lot of people judged me and will continue too but that's OK because I have learned that I need to live my life despite what others think because what others think isn't l ways what is best for me.
Finally, June came around this was a huge step for me. I moved into a sort of town house that is geared to my income my rent changes from month to month based on what I made that week. For the first time in my Imoved out on my own with no roo mate or boyfriend literally jut by myself an actual independent woman ( which is a scary thought considering I'm 26 and have two boys). Here is where we are now.
I know that o wanted to do the 52 weeks money challenge hell I blogged about it and started but unfortunately I had to spend a lot of money when I moved. I bought a new fridge and stove, a washer a used dryer and I bought my parents old bed. I was lucky enough to have single bed and my brother gave me his old one for ,y boys which meant that My littlest monster was being taken out of the crib and straight into a bed.
I won't lie this month came with a lot of freedom and well at the end of the month when the bills came out I was freaked out I don't think I have been ever so broke in my life and that is scary. That reminded me of why I started thiss blog and now with my life really in shambles and coming together all at once has giving me more motivation to keep up with this blog.
I have just started new being healthy journey. I am not calling a weight loss journey because it's not what this is about. The journey that am on is for me to become a whole new better life. I want to become more financially independent, healthier for my children both physically and mentally. I want to become a better person especially since I know that I have been more then inconsiderate and mean and just down right not ok with others and I can totally own up to it because no I am not perfect.
I want this blog to hopefully reach a few of you out there and make everyone realize that there is always room for improvements and that if you fall you just got to shake that dust off and get back on your feet.
July is approaching and for the month of July I will be keeping track of all expenses for the months to make a new budget since my old one is no longer applicable. I will also be keeping track of my health journey with you. I hope that you will follow along.
I have joined fitness blender and have taken a 4 week low impact workout program with them and I am getting back into yoga 2-4 times a week. I am also eating healthier since I am paying for a program that sends me enough non-GMO and pesticide free produce for 3-5 people and I'm eating it all with a bit of help of course but still.
That is the full update and I am hoping to get my new phone soon so I can take the pictures I need to help you follow me on y
my journey.
love
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